Changed lives

Dont know why I jus feel like writing this. Funny isnt it?

During August 2007, I moved from Sibu to Kuching after I completed my Diploma in Accounting. At first, I was really excited because I was going to Swinburne University and things went pretty well until the class started. The uni was a lot bigger than what I was used to be in college, and every day I would sit in the library by myself, doing homework or stay at my hostel room. I knew that it would take time before I was able to make good friends, but I didnt think it would be this hard. My self-esteem began to suffer, and I couldnt even make myself try out for dance, one of my big loves.

Before the move, I considered myself a pretty strong Christian. I had even prayed a few months before that God would prepare friends for me. Now since it wasnt happening as quickly as I had hoped, I figured he wasnt answering my prayers. I felt so alone and like God let me down, and I wondered why everything was so bad for me. I still went through the motions of going to church and doing what I was supposed to do, but I slowly started hardening my heart toward God and stop going to church.

On the July 2008 when I come back from Sibu, I had join this bible school. Actually I was ask to join this by my church pastor and had this opportunity to know those who join the course. Yesterday as I had my devotion, I read one of the author story and she mention this verse. It was 2 Corinthians 12:9 "But he said to me, "My grace is enough for you. When you are weak, my power is made perfect in you.' So I am very happy to brag about my weaknesses. Then Christ's power can live in me."

Wow, it was so powerful! Looking back over the year, I could see things in a new light. I had been mad at God for the hard times, but this verse told me that I should be rejoicing because of them. I may have been weak, but his power living in me through my weakness was better than having all the friends in the world! Today is 21 of June 2009, another 9 days more and it will be July. It's be one year.......

Now I am 23, I was being informed recently that this is the truth. I look back and see God's hand on me the whole time. Yesterday and today, 2 of my good friends left. I have been thinking quite a while. He continued to give me more and more friends, and I could see that by waiting and gaining these friends later, they were truer friends. Friendships made too hastily might have gotten me into trouble.

Occasionally, I still feel like I dont fit in, worry what is going to be in future, am I going to leave Kuching one day, etc. Still no matter what, I am so glad God helped me wait to have friends that truly care for me. I should keep reminding myself there are more important things for me to spend my energy instead of worrying about these small things. Never give up ^.^


Photos of 2008

Weird Night......itchy night?

After watching Terminator:Salvation, this is wat we (Me, Leslie, Shell & Yesh) do, lying on the padang infront of Merdeka Palace...... Lying in the middle of the field!!! Can u believe it!!! Plus there are still cars passing leh. Because of the weird thing we do, it almost cause a car accident!!! Well it was nice when I realise it, lay on the ground while grazing at the stars........ Well can say my 1st time, hehe....... Bah here is wat we do during tat time, well meaningless stuff......















Well as u can see the pic was quite blur cos it was taken using phone...... still not bad! So we manage to spend half an hour there, it really a nice way to enjoy after u finish ur exam or assignment. Well only one problem after we lying in the field, u get itchy all over ur body...... hahaaha........ ^.^ Peace

Never give up scratching..........

Emo again? Haiz....

Sometimes my emotions drive me crazy! They seem to be taking over. One day I'm up and loving life, and the next I'm mad and feeling tired. Sometimes I jus wan to chuck them all and not feel anything. Know wat, emotions can stink when they are dragging us down! Haiz so tired of this thing happening again and again..... Guess I need to learn to rely on His truth rather than being controlled by feelings. Do help me! Yup never give up!

BFF!

Isn't it amazing how ur best fren can cheer u up like no one else? Who's there when u don't make the squad? Who stands by u when an embarrassing moment tempts u throw into stress? It's tat person, ur BFF!

Tat fren is the one who laughs when u laugh, cries when u cry, encourage u when u r emo, and has ur back no matter what. Who else can u gab with the hours after school, provide transport and stay up giggling all night? Thanks pal, u are a blessing to me! Thank God for the gift of a true fren. Never take ur fren for granted cos tat buddy is a treasure from Him! (James 1:17)

Awwww.... wat a heartaches!!!!

Sometimes life is jus TOO MUCH! It is easy to feel like u are losing ur mind. Think about the last time I had 3 exams, 4 presentations, 4 individual assignments and 5 group assignments due in 2 weeks! An extracurricular stuff to top it all off. Arrgg.......... this is crazy..........! Those are only a few of the countless to-dos tat can spend my peace into a nosedive! Thinking about it is enough to give u fits of dizzy spells! (T_T)


Now, question is, where do we turn for energy and calm when life packs a wallop? As i read Philippians 4:7, Jesus was no stranger to the stresses we face. Yup, he saw lots of heartache in the people he met, and it caused his heart to hurt too! But he is called the Prince of Peace for a reason. His peace is like a massive hug tat is BIG enough to wrap around the hugest problem in the world, well in our life of coz! It doesn't let all the junk (rubbish as well) around us get in and mess wit our heads or rob us of our security in him. Hear tat, worldly temptation or devils, HE RULES!

Jesus' heart aches over ur heartaches but he doesnt stress out over anything because his promise of peace is bigger than all of it! Yes amen to tat! Now i need to learn to depends on him, it never easy but i believe on Him. I believe all of us can do it if we depend on Him!
Never give up!

Another good fren leaving......

I had a fren. Her name is Tonyong. I know her during ICCTS (International Cross-Culture Training School). Though i only know her for 4 months, but we are like brother and sister. Sad thing is tat she is leaving Kuching to Brisbane, Australia. (T.T)

Tonight we, the Bethany gang which consist of 10 ppl, have a farewell dinner especially for her at WestWood. Well the food was quite nice, though it not wat i wanted, without air-con. But all of us did enjoy spending time together.

The dinner start at 7pm and end around 9pm. But thank God, when we about to pay the bill, the who restaurant black out. God did let us had our wonderful time together, fellowship. Thank u God! Ya she is leaving tomorrow morning at 10am, but i think i may not be able to make it and sent her off. No worry, she is coming back on Jan next year. So for the time being, will pray for her journey mercy and msy God watch over her! Thank u Tonyong! Take care and never give up!! ^.^ (She taugh me how to set the features of this blog)

Relationships 1

I messed up. I hurt someone's feelings, lost my temper, or maybe just let my mouth run away without my brain. Even when i m joking, I tends to overdoing it!

Now wat? Cry over spilt milk? This is childish! Ya i know wat shud i do! Admitting when we're wrong is not always easy, but it's the first step in repairing a broken relationship with others and with God.

Be honest and upfront with the person u hurt, regardless of whether the goof-up was intentional or accidental. 'Fess up and humbly ask for forgiveness. Reaffirm how much u value their friendship. Swallow any pride that might make u want to prove how right u were, and instead seek peace with the other person. Guess i got lots of this to do now!


To those i have hurt: Sorry for hurting all of u! If i ever done something awful to u, please accept my apologies..... I will try my best to change and will not do it again! Will ask God to help me with it. Thanks!

Ya it true, never give up! :)