Promises

Are u waiting for God to answer a prayer? May be u are dealing with a situation that hurts a lot or simply confuse u, and u wish God would hurry up the answer. U know he is powerful and believe he can do anything. So why hasn't he met ur need?

That is the reason why I have not update my blog. Why? Because I didn't get answer, so I have give up trusting in Him. I am sick of waiting and I can do it without His help! Totally stop praying and read His words. In the end, I was exhausted and feeling down. But God didn't give up on me, which I happens to read this verse unwillingly.......

John 11:4, 14-15. Mary and Martha knew the pain of feeling let down by Jesus. They and their brother, Lazarus, were close friends of Jesus, so when Lazarus grew deathly ill, the sisters naturally thought of Jesus. They knew he could heal Lazarus and make their family whole again. So they sent for him. And they waited. And waited...... Just like how i waited.......

Confusion, hurt, and may be even panic set in as they watched Lazarus get sicker. Where was Jesus when they needed him most? Finally, they watched Lazarus die, and they went through the long process of burying and mourning their brother.

Jesus knew Mary and Martha trusted him to heal Lazarus, but he had bigger lessons for them: Did they trust him to heal their pain? And, most importantly, did they want Jesus to be glorified above all, in all situations?

I am just like them, Mary and Martha, as I learn to trust him more, he will show me more and more of his glory. Though now I still struggling whether to surrender and wait patiently or just go on my own ways again. It's hard, painful, lonely....... But this is how God works. All I can do now is have faith in Him. At the same time I need supports, helps & encouragement from others. I hope I will continue have this, never give up strength......