Beautifully Imperfect

I guess it been quite a while since i update my blog, can say this is my 1st one this year. Lately been busy and a bit lazy to do it! hehe....

Any hows, I came across this advertisement that was show during one of my lecturer.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nw0s4C0g5SM

Not sure why, but it spoke to me quite a bit with the irony of the 2 words I used as the title for this post...........

"Beautifully Imperfect.........."

out of the many many many things in my mind, I have been wondering about the future person i am gonna meet...... the person...... if u knw what i mean....... I always though i must find a person who is to be perfect for me. Think about it, no one is perfect!

Sometimes i find myself thinking about tat person (whoever tat person is) a little too much..... I remember my secondary frens is like trying to get me paired up with another fren of them...... Lol..... and i keep telling them i dont wan to be match make me.... since i still kinda shy... Hehe...


But what i gathered from the video above was that the person need NOT be all tat perfect....... since i knw i myself am not perfect.....

"......the little imperfections that make them perfect for u...."

Well i am not really a perfectionist..... and yet there are times i set standards that are a bit too high, when i come to think of it....

Still i knw that it is not exactly my choice to make right now.... He will decide who tat person is and it is His timing that it will happen......

i do admit i am getting a little bit impatient....., but i will wait.... I will try.......


I will wait on His direction and in the mean time, the relationship between My Lord and I needs more attention.... it really does.... so yea... Never give up!

Promises

Are u waiting for God to answer a prayer? May be u are dealing with a situation that hurts a lot or simply confuse u, and u wish God would hurry up the answer. U know he is powerful and believe he can do anything. So why hasn't he met ur need?

That is the reason why I have not update my blog. Why? Because I didn't get answer, so I have give up trusting in Him. I am sick of waiting and I can do it without His help! Totally stop praying and read His words. In the end, I was exhausted and feeling down. But God didn't give up on me, which I happens to read this verse unwillingly.......

John 11:4, 14-15. Mary and Martha knew the pain of feeling let down by Jesus. They and their brother, Lazarus, were close friends of Jesus, so when Lazarus grew deathly ill, the sisters naturally thought of Jesus. They knew he could heal Lazarus and make their family whole again. So they sent for him. And they waited. And waited...... Just like how i waited.......

Confusion, hurt, and may be even panic set in as they watched Lazarus get sicker. Where was Jesus when they needed him most? Finally, they watched Lazarus die, and they went through the long process of burying and mourning their brother.

Jesus knew Mary and Martha trusted him to heal Lazarus, but he had bigger lessons for them: Did they trust him to heal their pain? And, most importantly, did they want Jesus to be glorified above all, in all situations?

I am just like them, Mary and Martha, as I learn to trust him more, he will show me more and more of his glory. Though now I still struggling whether to surrender and wait patiently or just go on my own ways again. It's hard, painful, lonely....... But this is how God works. All I can do now is have faith in Him. At the same time I need supports, helps & encouragement from others. I hope I will continue have this, never give up strength......

Who am I?

Wat of me, dear Lord?
Are u pleased? Wat did u see?
I am sorry tat I have to ask, wishing I knew without asking.
Fear, I suppose, make me doubt. Still, I yearn to hear from u - a word, or image, a name or even jus a glance from u.

My wound......

I jus read one book saying: - unforgiveness and bitterness can wreck our lives and the lives of others (Eph 4:31, Heb 12:15). Forgiveness is setting a prisoner free and then discovering the prisoner was you. One thing I jus learn and understand tat forgiveness is a choice. It is not a feeling, but an act of the will.

Dont wait to forgive until you feel like forgiving, you will never get there. Feelings take time to heal after the choice to forgive is made. Sometimes we did something wrong or silly mistakes and and we always say, "It didnt really matter" or "I probably deserved part of it anyway."

Tat is a wrong thing to say. As forgiveness says: it was wrong, it mattered, and I release you. - From the book Wild Heart. I always wonder how many times have I forgive myself and others. How many times have I put the blames on others and myself.

Is it hard for me to forgive myself? Is saying a word sorry so hard for me? Is it because of wat i did or happen in the past? Why am I feeling hurt? Lord, I need healing and able to forgive myself.... to release and set free..... Gather my broken fragments to a whole...

Let mine be a merry, all receiving heart, but make it a whole, with light in every part.
Never give up......

Relationships 2

Let's face it!

Gossip can be a delicious and vicious, treat on an otherwise boring day.



Do u know tat in Proverbs 18:8 says, " The words of a gossip are like tasty bits of food. Ppl like to gobble them up." But even though it may seem fun to listen to and repeat little nougats of half-truth about another person, as long as tat person isn't u, right! We should know without a doubt tat it is wrong in God's view.

Nothing good comes from gossip, and ppl are nearly, well always hurt by it! U know wat, Proverbs 16:28 mention "a gossip ruins friendships." This is bad! So stop doing it, steer clear and direct the convo in a positive direction! Ask God for strength to overcome it! Never give up! :)

Driving....

Oh ya I think I haven told all of u about it...... I am now taking my driving lesson....hehehe....This is my 5 times I learn my practical..... I know it kinda late but at least i make an effort to learn though i feel lazy. Oh ya for my theory exam, I only make one mistake, haha wanna show off cos till now no one got tat high yet!!!! Whaha....







Feel kinda happy to be able to sit at the driver seat!!! NICE!!!
Never give up learning.....

Feel a little down

I realized tat sometimes right timing is really important if wanna do something. Though i feel sad about it but still i took this as a challenge. :) Everyone, do understand it. For those who knw me well, I m sure u knw the reason. So guys, sorry for troubling all of u and thanks for supporting me. :) God bless